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Needing Balance

I need some more balance in my life — as usual.

This week I noticed that the imbalance of my time spent with people and time spent alone is really hard on me. I pretty much need to go out and spend time with people socializing and interacting in some way with people I know. I also need to spend time alone to reflect on my life, relax, and do things that require my focus like writing and studying.

Lately, I have spent entire weeks going to the extreme with one or the other of these things. I will either be mostly alone for almost a week and then see people for a few hours here and there or I will go entire weeks being around people constantly with just a few hours to myself. It is driving me crazy!

I don’t know where the balance will lie, but I know that ideally I’d like to spend a few hours each day alone and a few hours each day around people. That leaves many, many hours for flexibility.

Also, I noticed that when I am spending time with people different situations fit into different categories in how I feel. Sometimes I can spend a whole lot of time in a big group and be worn out with people, but find rest with just one or two people. Also, there are times when I spend a lot of time with just a person or two, but feel refreshed when I go into a larger group social setting.

I guess this is all about staying relaxed and being refreshed. When I spend too much time along I get ancy. When I am spending too much time with just one or two people I can also get anxious and want a different setting, and the quickest of them all is when I am in a large group of people. It can be refreshing at first, but I get my fill of it pretty quickly too.

This is all pretty interesting to me right now. I am reflecting on different times when I feel ancy, which is basically my way of saying that I have pent up energy inside and want some change of scenery. When I think about it there are also certain people who I like to spend time with, but who I can only spend so much time with before I am ready to move forward.

It seems to me that when I first switch situations I feel either pleasure or displeasure. After that initial time I move to either contentedness, deeper displeasure, or deeper pleasure. Then as time moves on I eventually am finding the situation to be displeasurable because I want to switch scenery. The question I am wondering now is, ‘how long do I stay happy/content with a given person, group, or social situation?’ Knowing this about myself may be useful in helping me figure out what sort of working situation I want to be in as well as the sort of social situations I like.

Posted by David under Uncategorized |