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Death is Coming for Me. And so is Rebirth

Part of me is going to die soon. In a few months I will graduate and immediately move on to the next stage of my life. This life that I have been living will pass from me as if this particular instance of me has died.

I’ve said all this before to people, and every time I get a quick response. “You’re not really dying. That’s just a major life change” or “Yeah, but you can still come back, call the people you know, or visit with them.”
The second response strikes me as potentially the most valid, but most of the people that I am close to seem to be people that don’t keep up with their friends after they move on to another stage in their life. Even if they were to keep up with me, I would appreciate it, but know that it is a different connection. There would be a distance that removes the ease which makes things so much sweeter.
I don’t say all of this to be melodramatic. I have faith that my next life — or my next stage in this greater life — will be similar to this one in terms of amount of happiness, sadness, pleasantries, etc. I will miss this life at times when I am in the next, but I am sure I will look back and be happy that I am where ever I am.
This outlook actually makes me glad, because it brings me hope. I have changed lives several times over, and each time there is a cycle that I now see and can embrace. Each time I mourn the loss of one stage of life in preparation for the next. This practice is also very comforting to me, because I imagine that death will be a lot like this. I will end two different stages of life and move on to an entirely different one.
So, I am preparing myself to have a smooth death and a quick rebirth. This is all coming in a few short months, and I can use this time to responsibly enjoy the rest of this life, and at the same time prepare myself as best I can for the next one so that I will transition smoothly into my new life. Hopefully, like so many ancient cultures desired, I will be able to take as much goodness and love as possible from this life into the next, but if that isn’t possible than I will be content with just the things that I have learned, the experiences I have had, and the character that I have developed.

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